hmm slight hiatus..

I've been taking an art hiatus kind of since I graduated, doing mostly small drawings of nonsense. Adding to this I am jobless and pregnant and going through a difficult time at the moment. Also in the past few days I've been going on Second Life again. So in relation to what I was interested in before I am tempted to do some projects on there.

Thesis writing...(hey it makes sense to me)

Painting for me is a constant cycling of layers of ideas and processes, extremes coexisting, the inner and the outer world to name of few. This current body of work is one segment in a continually ongoing exploration into the nature of identity fragmentation in this current time, utilizing and combining the physical and the digital self. The self-identity, which has never been purely stable, is now continually fragmented and multiplied due to the nature of our world in this digital age. There is indeed a sense of existential turmoil. Though my work currently I aim to dissect and represent this concept through painting and the cylindrical nature that my use of paint can inhabit. It is also a way for me to look at the psychology within myself while having it be a means towards a societal encompassment of ideas, to connect with universal themes in response to humanity. This is a two part piece, where as the first will deal with the physical aspects, the second will involve the digital.
In dealing with thoughts of identity fragmentation and the posthuman I utilize the format of self-portraiture. Though they are not literally self portraiture, they are in terms of obsession and focus on how I view my body in physical terms. It is defined to me in the form of flaws in which there is a constant attempt to perfect the human form and to recreate ourselves. This also coincides with preserving parts of the body as a method for recreation (such as cloning) and preserving as samples (forensics). It is the aftermath of attempted perfection which then turns into destructive and deconstructed fragments. I am also interested in plagues and diseases, and I feel these pieces carry out the nature of that concept as well, bringing something so elusive and yet such a physical representation of destruction and decay.
What began as an accident quickly turned into a full out process. I began to do a series of pours on top of glass from which I could pull off into a self made raw material. These pours consist of a base of polycrylic, which dried quickly, as well as other acrylic based materials, being mediums, gels, and latex paint. The translucency can be somewhat controlled through the proportions of what is used. The behavior of the paint, depending on numerous factors, could not be. It is an interesting state of viewing what happens depending on aspects such as the tilt of the glass, how the materials are layered and react with one another and so on. Interestingly the plastic of the material gave such organic and body like qualities to the fragments and inherently reanimated them. Embedded with in these are samples from my own body: hair, blood, skin, scabs and the like. Other items include rust, leather and bone fragments to name a few. The obsessive attempt at preserving the discarded remnants of the body allude to a physical ritual, the fragments within fragments, the cylindrical aspects of the body, and death. When these fragments are placed in their final configuration they mass together into figurative forms, pathetically draping and reacting to one another and yet still isolated in their own characters. The mass was needed in order to remove the idea of completely individualized sample and to create an overwhelming composition and a shroud like form. From far away it is quite attractive in color and jewel like in quality. However once up close the realization becomes of what they are made up of and what is encased inside.
The paintings are done in the opposite way, starting with a structure of the paint on the surface and working the fragments on top and within the painting. The image consists of a portrait which at first is done quite specifically as a portrait but then proceeds to lose its self in the fragments. Mouths gaping they are screaming, embedded inside a plague and inside themselves while the illusion is that they continually grow. They resemble statues of antiquity, decayed and broken from age, but made of flesh.
The continuation of this work will rely heavily on the digital to recreate these works. Image samples from photographs of the fragments will be used on 3d forms from various games to create other worlds and “people”, to which they will be rendered in the form of physical paint. This will provide a loop connecting the physical world and the digital online world.

Post Human Fragments

Thesis pics.

showcard..



these were in the show...







these were not but should of been.











click to see fullsize.

a vent

fuck everyone (again) Especially retarded hipster pseudo artists who have nothing better to do than make stupid ironic comments and want to "enlighten" their audiences with their so called knowledge about the world but the only ones who see it are other retard hipsters. So fuck your crafty do it yourselfers and your felt and your gun jewelry (this last part had nothing to do with the show). You are all singlehandedly ruining everything about art. Lets not forget about all the conceptual bullshit that everyone pretends to care about. Trends these days made popular by these failures at life is all part of some inane circle jerk and ass fucking. I hope you all die. (the end)
on another note,
I'm taking pics of the show this monday along with other pieces that should have been in the show in order for it to make more sense but the museum people are a bunch of Nazis.

newish work cellphone pic style

This doesn't relate to anything but I did it at Red Lobster, as a celebration of my first time there.


These were taken last week so they are all somewhat different now. However I'll take some decent ones tomorrow. Thesis is Identity Fragmentation.

Peeled pours, mix of medias such as acrylic/polycrylic, various dyes and latex paint, hair and other various body fragments (who really knows what else).






Paintings continuing this through other means/results:







Sorry for the quality. I'm taking better pictures tommorow along with a few other ones.

More works in process for thesis purposes.

possible thesis?

Well I haven't posted here in like two months. There was really no reason for me not to however. Well except for a few things, such as my camera being on loan and computer problems and such.

Anyways... I do have some idea for a thesis.

I'm going to do what I should of been doing all last semester which was continuing on those small portraits but in various ways. What I wanted to do all last year was to take various pictures of myself to print on cards. I think I'll still be doing that, taking tons of pictures of my face done up oddly and mask like or contorted or what not. Then I shall work on them and then make more cards of those! So it would be like a continuing degrading work and I suppose almost self generational. Self portraits but not (which I like the idea of). I also wanted to do large painted portraits but I'm not sure if they would be based on some of the pictures or alternate selves. Alternate selves as online selves. Some examples of that could be of my Second Life character, my old main on WoW and so on. Problem is that its very limiting not in portrayal but the options of variety (being that those could be the only sources I come up with). I think it would be appropriate for the small portraits radiate around the larger ones, though for a exhibition I don't know how I could accomplish this.

Also with this, though it may be too ambitious is to utilize the samples and object remnants along with this as another segment.

more on this later. prepared to be amazed.